The best day ever

A few days ago Cal was talking to me about taking my somewhere fun. He didn't mention where or when but her promised he would take me somewhere. Today he told me we were going to downtown Minneapolis! Minneapolis! i have never been downtown and i was so exited! We left school ( i was nervous because if i got caught, my dad would find out.) and we took a streetcar downtown. We stopped at a food shop because we were really hungry. It was snowing and cold so we both wanted something warm. And something funny happened; Cal made me laugh. i don't remember the last time i laughed... it made me feel...happy. I don't even think i remember what happy means or feels. He took me to Dayton's and we walked around for a while, looking at all of the things to buy. Cal also bought me a baby doll. on the way home i kept looking at the baby doll and thinking of jaccob and i had to tell him. I broke down and told him about the baby and about my father. i hope he understands...

Cal's Flying Car

Today, something really weird happened. I mean, once I could understand, but twice is a little scary...Cal talked to me again. I didn't even talk to him first, I mean HE talked to ME. HE talked to ME. 

Cal sat next to me again today in class, and he leaned over and asked me if my father had really whipped me last night. What kind of question was that? Of course he did. Though I suppose I can understand Cal's doubt, a girl who never speaks with no friends suddenly declares her father hits her, it's not difficult to see why Cal would have a hard time believing me. He probably thinks I'm crazy like my sister, honestly I'm not even sure that I shouldn't have gone with her. 

I showed Cal my bruises today. When he asked if my father really whipped me...I just showed him. I didn't mean to, but I can't hold this secret inside anymore, I can feel my sanity slowly slipping away from me, piece by piece. There's only so much a girl can keep to herself before it begins to eat her up from the inside, I saw my sister slowly deteriorate, I can't let that happen again. Not to me...

Cal's eyes grew real large when I showed him the welts, I wasn't entirely sure why because my father had been in a better mood than usual yesterday. I'd carried much worse marks that the ones I showed Cal, but he looked like someone had just given him a flying car and told him it was free. That's when Cal looked at me in a way no one has ever looked at me before. His eyes gave me this look that told me he believed me. And in that moment, I didn't feel so insane anymore.


Cody

Losing My Marbles

Who knew that marbles could create so much trouble? Today during my last class before meeting my father outside to go home, a bunch of my classmates decided to play a prank on my teacher by rolling marbles on the floor all at the exact same time. I didn't have any part in it, I wasn't asked to play of course, but my teacher made me stay with the rest of the class for detention. My dad whipped me real bad....but anyways, I was sitting in my desk next to Cal...I knew him of course, who didn't? but he'd never noticed me before...not until I whispered under my breath what my father would do to me later. Then, something amazing happened, he talked to me. Me. Someone actually talked to me...and not just someone...but CAL. He's a real nice boy Cal, I wonder if he's the one who could save me...I can't become like Helga....
Ella Fitzgerald used to get me through the rough days...but now...she's not even enough. though one of her song does remind me of Cal.
Someone To Watch Over Me-Cal

Cody

It's Nothing

It's nothing that I talk about with my friends.... or friend. It's just that no one would believe me. Not even Cal. Everyone just ignores me in the halls and they don't seem to care. I'm just "Gretch the Wretch"and I'm not wanted by anyone. But I want to tell everyone! I want to shout it out and set myself free. But I can't. I can't say a word or he'll.... he'll come after me....I'm so scared..... and no one knows it...

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